Hxdream

What is it that you are working for in life at this very moment?

Maybe you are in your late 40’s and you have your house, family, and kids, or maybe you are in your young 20’s and your working towards your goal of this idea that you have in your mind of what is going to make you happy in life or maybe just maybe you are about to hit your 30’s and you’re stuck a bit. Not stuck in a sense that you have lost your direction or goal but just stuck on life.

I was stuck even though I knew exactly how I saw my future. I knew what I wanted to obtain, what I had to do in order to obtain material goods and become a surviving American.

The problem had never been the vision the problem for me was the actual journey. The road .

See, working to be happy just does not work. Working towards a goal does not equal “Happiness.”

Working towards a goal takes something else. It only works once you find what the “happiness” in your life is.

So what is it? What truly fills our blood and what really satisfies our every need in order to be happy? You go through life working, going to school, getting that job, car, house , family, and you move through the motion. You definitely get moments of happiness by having fun, going out, partying, laughing with your friends, the beginning of every relationship but then it fades .

For me I have had more moments of thinking, “what am I missing?”

“What will keep my happiness not for a moments but forever?”

As you grow older and you go through relationships, disappointments, failures, having your heart broken, losing yourself with the back and fourth of getting in touch with yourself, you find yourself growing more and more.

Through your growth you begin to find meaning.

That new car will please you for a moment, that new job will make you excited and confident when you get it but at the end what makes us “happy” does not lay in what we get or what we got .

What will promote happiness in life is, Love.At the end of everything love is what makes us feel.

Just to be clear I am not talking about the love that you have with your family, friends or partner. Those relationships add value to the happiness in life.

I am speaking about self love.

The love that runs deep inside your soul and you feel it tingling everyday for yourself. When you love yourself and that love goes so deep into your core that everything else does not matter that to me is  true happiness.

I had been missing that love inside of me for a long time.

I have fallen in love with myself many times before but like every relationship you get bored you go through rough patches & you give up but it’s about getting past that point of giving up and holding on to dear life. It is appreciating this world appreciating the universe that gave you to yourself. Finding yourself and falling in love with yourself is the ultimate happiness in life.

My next blog I will talk about the steps I took to fall in love with myself, how I found my confidence and how this time it’s sticking !