Hxdream

I have been running around, here and there, a bit more intensively the past few years.

I started the day with the daily Owaken Breathwork practice & then dropped into a meditation.

Todays meditation was “Tuning Into New Potentials” by Dr. Joe Dispenza. I often tap into this one or his other “Blessings of the Energy Centers” as they seem to be my favorite go-to’s.

I chose “Tuning In – ” because I wanted to see something unfold in my “families favor.” I thought let’s make some thing happen. lol…. the mind can be so funny at times.

Nonetheless, I sat & allowed myself to find the spaces in between and all around. I was feeling the space around my head, shoulders, and torso. Then there was a moment in the meditation where my mind had wandered off. Like a child sneaking out of nap time lol.

My thoughts had drifted to a work related topic of “how will I make this upcoming event space amazing?” I started to imagine scenarios and started walking through the entire space in my mind.

The moment I recognized I just did an entire walkthrough of a venue space I thought to myself “what am I doing here” lol. I was able to catch my thoughts doing what it does real well, running off to the future somehow believing that if it analysis every single possible outcome for this future event, then it can feel safe knowing that everything is under control.

When I caught my mind red handed, it was like I had caught a child. Hands filled with red paint, in shock as my mind turns to me knowing that it was in trouble lol.

My mind was caught off guard by me that it froze in that moment.

I gently guided it to let go of the drawings it was dearly holding onto & I said something like ” You can’t control how that turns out in the future but you can be here with me now & let down your worries.”

Immediately I was brought back into the present moment. I was in the space of complete nothingness. Right in that moment a rising feeling of joy, happiness & peace took over me. My mind had fully surrendered to concerning itself with the future for now and basked in the peace of the present moment…… I had arrived.

I sat in that meditation until my headphones died.

Instead of being the driver, my mind had taken a back seat, just enjoying the views of where we were parked.No one was in control, there was nowhere we were driving, we had just arrived.

I started with the thought that I was going to tune into a potential in favor of my families behalf but instead found myself thinking about a work event. I was way off track lol….. & this idea that I would control a future outcome through my mind was not grounded in truth.

Instead the mind acting as God was limiting the ability for a greater event to come forth my way. God is lovingly willing to gift all children but the little me must get out of the way. So once my mind let go I felt my way just arriving into this feeling & that feeling for me was wealth. I was not painting what my mind thinks wealth should be but was instead tapped into the feelings…..arriving to wealth.

After getting up from my meditation I felt that something had been gained. I then started writing in my journal and with each word I met myself, arriving. with each breath I was arriving and with every letter I type right now I practice arriving feeling each key, and feeling my fingers move allowing myself to experience everything moment to moment.

It’s still a practice.

When I find my mind running ahead of me or behind I stop and bring it in the present moment asking it to just arrive here with me now.

Are you arriving?

Arriving with each breath, arriving with each moment?

You must be exhausted chasing that mind running everywhere lol. I encourage you to take a break and put the mind to rest. You deserve a break. – Namaste.