Hxdream

What I am learning through my lows

The lows will always be the uncomfortable ebbs and flows to life.

You can be so high sometime and then this dip comes. This reminder that want’s to pull you fully back & its in those spaces that I wonder what do I truly know?

It’s this push and pull between my dark and what’s trying to become light.

When the dips arise I find it rises from the narratives of judgments that may come into my head.

The wanting to store the blame on someone if things go in a different direction than I expected it.

That’s the thing, miracles should not be expected.

They are miracles because they happen in the constant unknown.

The mind tries to creep back up taking over control and so I slow…..all the way down.

I take the longest moment, moment by moment, working with myself.

Breathing , detaching

Breathing , detaching

Breathing , detaching

over and over until I can find the space to breath.

In that breath I can be okay. Not ready to slay the da but simply okay.

Sometimes I can find myself hung up for having a low and just get on myself unable to let go.

So now I continue the practice of letting go.

The detaching is the letting go.

Letting go of all judgement, letting go of all ideas, concepts of whats wrong or right…. and simply just being.

As so many crowd around me on this beautiful beach with family and friends, I sit alone writing this note to the world that this is my stage in life .

Alone

For how long I do not know…. but the feeling is that I will be in this stage for a moment in time.

The main thing that has me continuing on in this internal work is that it is my only connection to home.

My connection to source 🤍✨