Hxdream

For so long I tried to fight against my natural ways. My wavy hair was always pressed to look straight and my boobs were enhanced so that I can look more “womanly.”At one point in my younger 20’s I would go tanning aggressively when tanning beds where the thing to do.

For so many years I fought against my own natural looks. I didn’t think anything of it, it’s normal to remove all your hair in what society feels are “unwanted places”. It’s normal for woman to put make up on to have a clearer complexion.

It wasn’t till after my awakening that I slowly started to go back to my natural ways such as not using heavy filters on my photos. I wore less make-up & some days I would go completely bare feeling really great!

Last year November (2021) I decided to remove my implants no longer needing them. I no longer felt less of a woman recognizing that my physical features do not make me less or more than what I am.

What I am has everything to do with how I feel on the inside.

Some people may judge us by our looks & write us off but for me, I decided that would be okay. Why? because I was safe with who I was.

As of a few weeks ago November (2022) I decided to stop blowing out my hair & learn the ways of my natural waves.

I no longer wanted to make it what it’s not, of course there will be the occasions I do – do my hair differently but no longer will I do my hair at the frequency I was which was more days than not.

I recently purchased a hair mask as I noticed this journey with my hair isn’t so easy. It looks a bit unsure of what it’s doing and I thought, “okay it’s time for me to get to know you hair. Understand what you need so that you can be healthy, strong and vibrant.”

That’s when I had an internal moment, although we may know how we want things to look and where we want to head we must remember to stay present to where we are, nurturing the state of now instead of overwhelming, over-pushing or becoming frustrated for not being “perfect” right away.

Meet you from where you are; here and now!

Have your vision & goals but recognize where yourself in the now. Give yourself what you need here & now so that you may be able to approach your goals in a joy-filled state.

My hair currently needs some hydrating so I am giving it what it needs. I am learning how it moves, sits, and acts.

Re-learning who I am, without judgement. With acceptance & compassion to nurture myself to where I am going.

We are all going but its how we go about getting there that makes the experience a great or not-so-great one & all we have left is our memories of the path.

I hope this gives you a reminder to meet yourself where you are at now and embrace the fullness of it. Let us let go of judgment and let us let go of control. Honor and nurture yourself here and now so that you may be able to enjoy the process of journeying back home, to your full embodiment of the Light that you are – Sending so much Love and Light to you and your path